I feel so retarded

I dont consider myself stupid, but I think my lack of patience renders me closer to it than if I would just stop and try instead of try and give up.

This blog for example.  How come everyone has such cute wall paper?  How do you design things?  Upload photos? Add blogs I follow?

I really think that this is a way for me to communicate and journal at the same time.  Lets see how long it will take me to log on again to try some more.